And now... More pain!

Alright alright. It's really not that bad.. I think.

I am into my therapy, post-surgery exercises, physio, whatever you wish to call it.
That consists of, nightly, stuffing as many tongue depressors into my mouth in a stack as I can. I am up to 16 and it kills. It hurts like hell to be frank. (Sorry mom, I said hell! Yikesss.) To relate it to, sadly enough, another orthodontic procedure, it feels like when I had my pallet expander in that ripped the cartilage from my upper jaw area (think sinuses) and broke it into two pieces to make my upper jaw wider. Not pleasant you think? Yes. I know.
This exercise is doing something similar. While it is not ripping and breaking cartilage, it IS stretching muscle, which at the moment feels almost the same.
A couple of nights ago, the pain was so bad that it sent me into hysterical sobs which didn't stop until long after even the pain had faded. Uncontrollable and wretched.
I must admit, after that episode, I haven't been brave enough to do my exercise again. I should tonight really, I do want to be able to yawn without pain someday soon.

Let senior year begin..

Well I am back to school, back to my amazing friends. I am so truly blessed to have finally, after 16 years, found genuine amazing friends.

I went and saw my orthodontist yesterday - everything's looking great. He gave me non-latex elastics for my mouth.
Update: I have a latex allergy.
If you remember from a few days after surgery I had the sores on my lip, we now know that was from the latex tape they used for the breathing tube.
As well I have a scar on my hand from a few years ago from a reaction as well.
The reason we found this out is that I recently developed very painful sores on the inside of my mouth where the latex elastics had been rubbing. It made it painful to talk and just to function.
The sores are now gone and I am now in the "know" about my allergy. Yay me. ;)

Being back to school is great. I love the atmosphere and being around everyone again. My last year. Wow.
Only problem is that I am talking A LOT more than I have in the past month. My jaw and it's new position aren't liking talking this much though. The muscles and the jaw joint is quite sore and aren't cooperating with me very much.
E.g. I'll be standing there, talking or not, and my jaw will seize up, causing me to loose control of my jaw which normally ends up in it painfully jerking to one side, open or closed, and usually ends with it clamping down on my lip. All looks very odd especially to those that don't know my story.
OR today I was drinking something only to have it squirt out the other side of my mouth - that is thanks to me still not having any feeling in my lip/chin. (This no-feeling issue also causes me randomly to not be aware of having something on my face or to have a squeak slip out of my mouth. . Rather awkward and embarrassing, especially at school)

But despite this I am quite content. I constantly am getting compliments on how I look. I have a jaw line for the first time in my life and I actually look my age. How nice. Trust me. It's fabulous.

Don't Eat Steak! (5 weeks & 2 days post-surgery)

Okay okay, I know I'm not supposed to be eating most solid foods, let alone steak for another two weeks but what's a girl to do?!
We had a well-traveled Australian, AMAZING barbecuer on the grill. I just couldn't say no.

Foolish girl, I know.

I spent the entire night waking up due to the pain.
I then spent the morning freaking out that I had lost my anti-inflammatory. Trips up and down the elevator for my dad to search the vehicle.
Luckily I found it later on and that has definitely helped a lot.

But argh. I just wanted a little red meat!

A little more on the swollen and sore side today. I deserved it though. ;)